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I really shouldn't be doing this
I'm too young for this crap
I really shouldn't be in situations like this either
I'm too fragile for this kind of mess
I shouldn't be typing this, but I am anyways
I wish someone could help
I wish someone could tell me what to do
But it's not that person's problem
It's mine
It's my problem that I deeply like this guy
It's my problem that when he's around me everything about me shuts down
It's my problem that I can barely keep my eyes off of him
It's my problem that I can't help, but blush everytime I stare in his eyes
It's not my fault that his eyes are compelling
A beautiful sky blue
His hair dark, a usual blonde
His hand are soft and I miss his touch
I miss the way he use to look at me
His eyes full of trust and worthiness
He's someone I can confide in when times are bad
He's a person that makes me feel as though I can be myself and not have to fake to be someone I'm not
Most times I feel pathetic that I can't tell him
Other times I feel as if...
I feel like crying
I feel like an idiot
A total dumbass
An a** period
I wish I could I could explain how I feel about him
In ways that I can't describe
Ways that I don't completely understand, but they are there
And I just confront myself with them
Or him for that matter
Hopefully, I'll be able, too
I hope that the day comes to where I won't be afraid about it anymore
That I'll be able to tell him
That I really truly like him alot and not care who hears me
Hopefully anyways
And that's the keyword
Hopefully
Hopeful
Hope
And using it in a sentence...
I hope that I can tell someday and hope that it won't be too late. cry