I've been on such an emotional roller coaster lately. All week I've balled my eyes out over the tiniest things. The other day we were supposed to go on a "surprise" drive, but the surprise wasn't what I hoped for. Not that it was a bad surprise, but because it wasn't what I expected I cried so hard I thought I'd have to be sedated. The day before my friend was late to our little outing and I was in tears then. When a tiny group of people from a forum here can make me want to just slit my wrists, I think that means it's time to take my medicine. Okay, just to clarify, I wouldn't really slit them, I just felt like it. My meds will stop all of that, but I don't want to go back to being catatonic rolleyes If I had to live like that, I really would slit my wrists.
So yeah, the 21st is my birthday. I'll be 18, horray neutral . Welcome to adult hood, to the end of being a child, the end of birthday parties and great presents, and the definite end to empty, relaxing summers. Welcome to being responsible. I don't think I'm ready. To hear my friends talk now, they already have so much responsibility, I've been so spoiled and sheltered. Sometimes I worry that I won't be able to make it without that protection. Maybe I'll just marry rich and have someone else take care of me. Sigh. I can dream can't I? Oh well, who knows what will happen? I know I don't, and it's ******** scary as hell.
(Sorry for typos.)
So yeah, the 21st is my birthday. I'll be 18, horray neutral . Welcome to adult hood, to the end of being a child, the end of birthday parties and great presents, and the definite end to empty, relaxing summers. Welcome to being responsible. I don't think I'm ready. To hear my friends talk now, they already have so much responsibility, I've been so spoiled and sheltered. Sometimes I worry that I won't be able to make it without that protection. Maybe I'll just marry rich and have someone else take care of me. Sigh. I can dream can't I? Oh well, who knows what will happen? I know I don't, and it's ******** scary as hell.
(Sorry for typos.)
