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Sooooooo... I realize that my life up to this point has been a test to see how I can handle the real world, but what I don't understand is why it has to hurt so Goddamned bad... I look at my apartment and all I can think about is how much wasted space there is. All I ever wanted was for us to be happy, and all I want for her now is happiness. BUT WHY THE ********, does it have to hurt like this. I could have died about four times already and each time it was her face that pulled me from the brink. But now that there is no hope for us in the future what and the ******** am I supposed to do.
That is the pain I have been dealing with.
Thisssss is the hassling I have been through lately.
I have no Idea why... Oh yes I do, the head hancho at my work wanted alot of money thats why. But anyways the company I work for got bought back by the corporate office. So that means a lot of Goddamned changes, but the worst part is the stress my new general manager has. I know you're saying "Ben, why would the bosses stress affect you?" But here is the thing it is. He is the same age as me and the new assistant he is getting is twice our age, and I think a closet homo. So he cant ******** deal with it, and he is making it seem like I don't pull my weight as a manager. And I am like "b***h, who da ******** ya think runnin this b***h when you ain't here!"
And all I wanna do is jump off a ******** tower!
So tell me anyone who would ever read this. Am I just losing my mind, or am I just losing at life. I love you all from the bottom of my heart. Because after all this life is about Truth, Beauty, and most importantly LOVE!
 Benji III · Sat Sep 17, 2011 @ 08:48am · 0 Comments |
