I've been feeling so strange lately. Even though I am constantly surrounded by my family, I feel like I'm by myself, left alone in the dark. I miss all of my friends, so very much, and I feel like I might lose them if I don't see them ... I have always felt that, if they're not around, the don't exist, even though I know, and understand, that life continues without me around. I feel like they're going to forget about me, and, in truth, that is one of my greatest fears ; to be forgotten by the people I care the most about. Lately, I've been having a reoccuring nightmare, where I'm at my school, and nobody knows who I am. I see all of my friends talking to their friends, and when I go up to them, they act like I'm just another face in the crowd, even though I am . I don't even know if people are reading this, if people are reading any of my journal entries. Maybe they've already forgotten about me ...
I used to be alone, all of the time. I had no friends, no one really knew my name. I don't want to go back to that ... I can't go back to being that quiet girl in the corner, not since I've found my voice . The silence around here is suffocating. Maybe I'm just being emo ... I don't really care what you call me, but I still feel like something just isn't right. ...
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