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i figured i would update my journal. not that it matters. nobody ever reads it razz

anyways.

my son is almost 7 months old. now. he is the cutest darn thing in the world. i love him to pieces and i am so happy to be a mom, even tho i am kinda young.

my husband and i have been married for almost a year, our 1 year anniversary is on january 23. but sadly, i don't think we will make it. i found out that he is cheating on me. i haven't talked to him about it yet, he will just deny it. see here is how our relationship is working out right now. we are currently not living together. we use to live with my parents since we are so young and had no where else to go, but my dad kicked him out because my husband is an a**. i am the one always watching our son. even when we were living together he never helped out. since we have been living seperate he has only bought our son 1 box of rice cereal, and 1 32 pack of diapers. thats it. when i had a job i had to practically beg him to watch our son. he would always b***h and complain saying that i need to stop asking him last minute cus he doesn't like having to cancel all of his plans. and if i would ask him a few days in advance, he would forget then get mad at me for not reminding him. whenever we fight, i'm the b***h, i'm always wrong. i'm not aloud to defend myself or put in my opinion even if i know i am right...its just stupid. i really don't know why i love him, i really don't know why i can't let him go. but i have too...i can't keep getting hurt.

i am also going to be joining the airforce. my husband of course doesn't support me. he doesn't know i am joining. when i mentioned to him i wanted to join his first response was "well there goes our relationship" ...thanks for the support babe. anyways, the airforce is good pay, and it garuntees a good future for my son. yeah there will be times where i won't beable to see him, yeah it will be horrible not being able to see him, but over all its a good thing.

well i don't really know what else to say, i think everybody is caught up.

okie dokie razz