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Everything should be going perfectly for me right now. I've got an awesome hotel room for Otakon right now, met a few people in lines today, made it up to Baltimore without incident, kept my sanity . . . and yet, something is missing. I'm almost afraid to admit what it is, because I know almost exactly what it is. My friends.

I had a fight with them a few months back, and I'm regretting it.

I wrote a note to my former best friend a few weeks ago in an attempt to apologize, but I haven't gotten any reply from her. I'm afraid she's just completely blocked me out of her life forever, without any way for me to say I'm sorry.

I really do want to be with her again and have fun like we used to, but it seems so impossible at this point that it's making me depressed. I don't know what to do next and don't want to seem like I'm stalking her in desperation, which I know would make her reluctant to listen even more.

I'm just suddenly so lost and alone in this foreign yet familiar city which I've learned to love over less than a week in my life, yet . . . it seems like it should be so easy to fix. But it isn't.

Sonja, if you see this, won't you consider my offer again? I'll be waiting.