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So guess what? Of course it was a hoax. I feel like crying now because of him. he promised me all these things like any other relationship, but he HIDES everything! It makes me so stressed and frustrated! He lives with his Ex. :/ What does that tell me?! Ugh. These past few weeks have been HELL and he hasn't helped any. I'm honestly thinking about breaking this thing off... What should I do? Message to help?
 xXxFallen Neko AngelxXx · Tue Feb 23, 2010 @ 02:18am · 0 Comments |
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Well This Is Different... |
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Have you ever felt like... everything is perfect, then again, something was wrong? Like... Whenever your phone lit up, your heart skips a beat, and you're hoping its one person... yet when its not them, you feel disappointed? Why is that? Why does it skip a beat when the text message does come, and its just a hello but you love it all the same? I think i finally have that person to look forward too. Then again I'm a teenager, so what's to say its wrong... again...
I'll get on with this though. I can't tell you to much about him... and I'm wary of putting his name. My stomach is churning because.. well what if he finds this? lol. I really do care for him, since i got his first text message asking if i was okay when i was sitting in my mom's car, on her cell phone doing stuff online because she was inside with my little brother, visiting my grandma. I had just updated my myspace status-thinking no one really read it- and put "At nursing home again... please text me." and my number. Why was i surprised to get a message? lol.
I remember asking who it was, and when he said "Derek" i was like... "Delece??" and messaged back saying, "when did you get a new phone?! o:!"It was pretty confusing, and when he said it was the guy who played Derek on Myspace i was all... "Oh s**t, you're a fool!" I use to roleplay with him, and wandered what he was like, the guy behind the computer. I even remember thinking he was probably 20 something years old!
But no... he was more towards my age, and he wouldn't tell me his name. It made me nervous, because my name was on my myspace! He was actually very sweet, kept hugging me [With star quotes duh] and it made me relax some. After that i was sure to keep talking to him, and then i found out his name, by accident, from his friend.
Oh his friend. When i talked to them like that, i had a funny feeling and it sorta did hurt... then "Derek" finally admitted, the two were dating, but they did like me, and hoped it didn't bother me to much. Of course not! Two hot emo guys to text? of course i was okay with it! As time went by, it turned out they had some problems, and came to me for help. I was glad to help, and after that, i don't know where time went.
So it was very recently when i was texting "Derek", talking about some stuff about his friend, when suddenly he says he wants to kiss me. I was like "o//o Woah are you kidding?" That's what i'd dreamed about, and wondered. I found it... odd that minutes before my mom said "Those two will always be together" then i got a message saying they weren't.
What would you have done? I really liked him, since that first day, and even now... i do still adore him... but what bugs me is the distance, how i can't hold him or kiss him. He says its fine, but i still wonder... and i feel my heart still skipping necessary beats What i want to know now is... what are we?
xXxFallen Neko AngelxXx · Fri Aug 21, 2009 @ 05:16pm · 0 Comments |
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I has a baby baby, Midna! We got her only a week ago. Midna's a little rowdy, but in the cute way. I asked the owner how old she was, and found out she'll be 4 months in a week! She's still very young. We have an older cat, named Jenny, and she's a real b***h. The first night Midna came home Jenny attacked her, and we had to throw Jenny outside. D:
We've had Midna for about a week and a half now, and she's really cute. Jenny slowly getting use to her, but for the most part, they stay on opposite sides of the room. Jenny stays by our back door, and Midna on the computer desk. Wondering how? Well i'll put a pic of it up some day. For now, i'm going to go sing to my cats.
Yes. Sing. To cats. XD Laters~
xXxFallen Neko AngelxXx · Fri Aug 21, 2009 @ 05:15pm · 0 Comments |
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[1] I said I liked you:
[2] I kissed you:
[3] I lived next door to you:
[4] I started smoking:
[5] I stole something:
[6] I was hospitalized:
[7] I ran away from home:
[8] I got into a fight and you weren't there:
What do you think about my:
[1] Personality:
[2] Eyes:
[3] Face:
[4] Hair:
[5] Clothes:
[6] Mannerisms:
Other:
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] When and how did we meet?
[4] How have I affected you?
[5] What do you think of me?
[6] What's the fondest memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we will be friends or enemies?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Have I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Emotionally, what stands out?
[13] Do you wish I was cooler?
[14] On a scale of 1-10, how nice am I?
[15] Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
[16] Am I loveable?
[17] How long have you known me?
[18] Describe me in one word.
[19] What was your first impression?
[20] Do you still think that way about me now?
[21] What do you think my weakness is?
[22] Do you think I'll get married?
[23] What about me makes you happy?
[24] What about me makes you sad?
[25] What reminds you of me?
[26] What's something you would change about me?
[27] How well do you know me?
[28] Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
[29] Do you think I would kill someone?
[30] Are we close?
[31] Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
xXxFallen Neko AngelxXx · Tue Feb 03, 2009 @ 03:55am · 2 Comments |
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xXxFallen Neko AngelxXx · Tue Feb 03, 2009 @ 03:25am · 0 Comments |
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