a month and 4 days. thats how long i have had a boyfreind. my first boyfreind. the boy that i always wanted as a boyfreind. a month and 4 days and i have been unfaithful twice. hmmmm. i hate to admit it, but i think maybe char-bear had the right idea about men. i always wanted a guy that wasn't gonna rely on me. my freinds rely on me. i don't need a man to rely on me. i want a guy to hang out with sometimes and sleep with often and watch anime and zombie movies with while eating gigantic burritos and deep fried foods. i have all that. its just the commitment thing i don't like. i mean, is it just me or is 4 weeks too short of time for some badd a** gangster to get attached to a girl. or maybe it makes sense cause they're possesive? i don't know. although if i think about it he really isn't terribly OG... he's more like a teddy bear with a bandanna and a wife beater. *sigh* but either way. i wasn't prepared for him to get so attached. like... i've never had a boyfreind before, this is all very new to me. and like, i dunno.... i don't want to hurt him, at all, ever... i just don't want to not be tied down like this. a relationship shouldn't be a burden. it should be liberating, but now i don't have the liberty to do all the stuff that i like to do *sigh* how complicated. i thought it was men who were supposed to be like this. like... missing dates to play video games, drink beer, and *read* penbthouse. well maybe im a guy on the inside. so maybe i shouldn't be with a guy. maybe i shouldn't be with anybody... or actually, i should have just stayed with june. that girl was perfect. is perfect: j: so do wanna play KOTOR first? or MGS3? k:your call homie, bum me one of those? j surprised f course
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