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I feel like letting out some stuff so since i know no one reads this I thought i may as well write it down here.

Im very tired of living everyday...in fear of my mother taking me away from my dad, In fear of losing my little sister, in fear of living in some foster home beacuase my mom doesnt want to lose the child support, and most of all i fear my self and who i am. I thought that when i came here i could leave behind the emotional crap my mom puts me through. But now I understand that it will just get worse. I feel so guilty for leaving my little sister behind. I have dreams that i'll come back one day and she'll hate me. Now i find that even here with my father i have major problems. First because of my mom's "need" for money we, how shall i put it, arent living like we could. And now i find out that my dad's "room mate" and my dad are going to split up because of the problems they have. I guess its been a while ssince ive seen a true couple fight. And its bring me back to before my mom and dad where divorced. I sit in my room and cry a little every night....Im afraid...