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I don't know who it is but there's a wonderful person watching somewhere I'm sure, who likes to play games with me. They give me a bit of intelligence, not enough to do anything with, and put me among some really interesting people then sit back with a bowl of popcorn as I push them away one by one.. Somehow I end up pissing them all of, whether it's by showing their picture to people I know or if it's because I don't stick my nose far enough into their lives. I don't know what to do anymore, and I'm sure you're thinking, just don't do the things that make them mad, but if I knew it would make them mad, then i wouldn't have done it, I had a nasty scare today with one of my friends because of that, and I lost another of them. You want me to change? You'll have to tell me exactly what to do because I am obviously an idiot when it comes to other people. Like I said the reason I'm boring you with this crap is I lost another friend today and I'm somewhat pissed so please don't annoy me of I'm likely to at least try to hurt you, I can't do much.. but I can try. I am really sad tho, it was a very treasured friend whom I had large amounts of respect for. Maybe they're reading this maybe not, but if you are.. I'm sorry and you were right to do what you did.. Fare'well and I will miss you, dunno if that'll make you happy or not but god damn it why do you keep making me cry?

Okay, that was a giant waste of everyone's time. I luff you Nate. Good night peoples.. I wish upon you, happier lives. o.o