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its been very very lonely and quiet .
i found something new to do, i finally downloaded audition online wink
god, i think im addicted to it
hmm... i guess thats it
oh yea, there's nothing to do anymore, im...so...bored....
audtion is in a patch now can't play for the next 2 hours.
bleh...
mm.. i'll just go play the sims 2
to kill some time.
adios.

things r actually getting better, thats so amazing emo
today my good friend of mine, came over to my house. We baked cookies and brownies it was very messie but we had a whole lot of fun. After everything was cleaned and done, we sat down drinking milk and munching on cookies while watching a movie, "clue." mystery movies r so bizarre eek but they're great. xp

we went on youtube watched some vids ninja
and then gaia 4laugh whee heart
but then she had to go crying so now its boring sweatdrop domokun scream

but i'll see her on monday at school 3nodding blaugh redface

and i have to take a shot on friday....scary.... stare gonk

cry when things get tough in my life.
i don't have anyone at home to lend a shoulder to cry on
and something like that. my parents would say "wth r u crying. ur not suppose to have a bf, ur suppose to be studying its school ur suppose to be worried about"
well that kinda helped but school sometimes get stressing. and when i don't reach to my parents expectations, they'll do something. My sister, she'll just call me weak heart or cry baby cuz im sensitive stare , well no help there. My grandma she's kind but she can only speak cambodian (khmer) and i speak kinda lil but i understand alot. i wish i knew how to speak more though so i could communicate her more. so basically my home is nowhere to be a comforting place. and the only ppl i got is my friends... which im very glad to have. both my online and real life friends. yesterday i talked to my bf or might u say ex, for the very last time... it was heart breaking. but it was the same thing hppening to me. i was in another relationship of having to force myself to stop loving someone. its really hard..seriously.
i did cry for an online bf for 1 week.
but i cried for him for 3 weeks after the day he started to "act weird" ignoring me and my feelings.
im still crying tho cuz i couldn't let my emotions out or my parents might hear me.
so plz don't call me a cry baby =.=''' im just feeling horrible and i really want to let this pain out.
last night, i actually thought i was gonna fall apart.
wow, falling apart for a jerk? yea i know.
but this jerk he gave me something that none of the guys ever gave me.
"ichiru no hana" or w/e it is i'll look it up.
means the bird will fly away... he is the bird and he'll away from me.
well he just did yesterday.. and all i have memory of him is his love notes and his bear he gave me for my b-day, whcih says "i love u" whenever i squeeze it too hard. i still love him though, but hanging onto him will just be hurtinging myself.
im planning to sign a contract and let all of my friends sign it, cuz they're my witnesses and i'll sign my name saying that'll i'll stop love and w8 till im in college.
i know thats sounds impossible for some u buds. but i don't want to feel this feeling anymore. yea its my fault too, i should have known this was gonna come and hit me.
well anyways, thnx for all ur love and support buds.
ur like real life friends to me. and of course trang domokun