this s**t is insane. I don't think that i've ever had this many insanly life related dreams in one freaking month. It's pissing me off to say the least. how do you get over some one when their face in you're mind every night? Why now? it's been over a year ago. I dont get it. maybe it's because of christmas. but then again why only him? there are alot of people that are from my past that I miss. many people that i wish I had the strenght to talk to. i don't think my heart could take it. I can barely keep from breaking down when I think about them, him exspecually. Our parting wasn't the smoothest. I wish I would have just told him I was pregnant when we were still talking. Maybe he would understand. Or maybe he's be even more pissed off. i don't know but I needed some place safer then my space to vent. I hope that he can forgive me. Or maybe he already has. I don't know. Oh well I'll try not to think to much on it. Maybe those dreams will go away.
