Every once in awhile lately I've been asked about my signature more specifically the line...
"Feb 24th 2007 was the greatest day in my gaian life."
Feb 24th was the day I became married to one of most lovely ladies on gaia in my opinion, My Angel... `Midnight's~Angel`
heart heart However nearly a month afterwards this day is causing both me and my Angel alot of stress due to a mistake of mine.
Now on Gaia I have many friends whom are girls that I get along with and one of them apparently had feelings for me that I didnt realise until after I got married, so obviously she's pissed and well I don't blame her so I told her she was right and I deserved everything she could throw at me well sure enough she did it and here it is:
Megan
Okay, I remembered what I figured out how to put my anger in words like I couldn’t do yesterday. You said to let it all out, so I’m going to.
Everything.
You’re a dickhead, y’know!?
You went off, got a ******** fiance! I still loved you, I still love you now! Did you ever truly love me? Did you ever even care about me at all?
Why didn’t you just break up with me? Or did you not even consider me your girlfriend, I don’t think you did. I think you just thought I was just some girl that wishes that you loved her. Oh yeah, your wife also told me about some other girl when she was broken up with you. Which hurts even more. 2 girls that you never told me about! ******** a*****e.
By the way, I didn’t go to your gaia-wedding because I didn’t want to. I’m secretly not happy for you. Not so much of a secret now. I wanted to be that girl, getting married. I hate your wife, she’s a lover-stealer!
I don’t care if you hate me now because I deserve it. But it was supposed to be me to be married to you. ME! Not some other girl who you never even get to talk to anyways!
This is my second hateful PM in two days, but I don’t care.
I don’t care anymore.
You don’t either, you never cared.
Plus your wife tried to get me hacked. She sent me a scam that says to give your password and get gold, then she’s like: “Oh yeah, do it, I got over 400k with it!”
I bet that’s why she got her stupid account hacked.
Bye, sorry for bugging you again. And sorry it was long.
Well... I know I was surprised when she called me a dickhead I thought she would have said something worse...
As for her loving me... All I can say is how sorry I am for not realising her true feelings, I've never claimed to be a smart man when it came to understanding feelings. I can't help it if that's a fatal flaw of mine. As for her asking me if I actually cared about her at all? Yes I did, if I didn't care for her I wouldn't have asked her to let it all out at me, I've wouldn't bother with her anger... Not many guys on gaia would do what I did and allow someone to tear into them willingly.
As for being my girlfriend well she was a girl and she was my friend so in a way yes... Did I care for her? Yes I did although I doubt she'd believe me... could I have loved her? Anything was possible if we were able to be more comfortable together, which apparently didn't work out.
As for my other realtionships yeah I've had a few, 3 at least... but those were before this so called "relationship" ever existed, if she had asked me I would have been honest about them cause each one helped mold me into the man I am today.
and that's what I was expecting her to call me first...
sweatdrop As for her wanting to be the one to exchange vows with me on wedding day... like I said if I knew how she was truly feeling before all of this maybe the situation would be different. I don't know I can't go back in time to see what would happen if I did such and such differently.
As for blaming Angel sorry my dear, but seeing as its my mistake this is something I'll be dealing with so keep her out of this. Mind you I know my angel will be disagreeing with this already... Is she expecting me to just dump Angel just like that?!
Do I hate her? NO!!! Why would I hate someone who deserves the right to pretty much kick my a** in? Like I said before if I knew how far this relationship was going it probably would have been different. and as for me not talking to her I can't help it if everytime i'm on it shows her as "offline"...
As for me not caring about her... if I didn't really care I wouldn't have let her words faze me in the first place, I wouldnt have gave a rats a** if she was pissed off at "My choice". I could have just ignored her and go on with my life, but no I chose to worry about her emotions and told her to let it all out at me. How many guys on Gaia would do that now hmm?
As for the accusation of my wife being a hacker, its false she got sucked into a scam which ended up allowing the hacker to take over the account which then added more opprotunities for targets cause in a hacker's mind "a friend would always trust a friend..." anyway...
That's the end of this rant here... and if your wondering if I would choose between my Angel and this girl? Sorry Megan but it would still go to angel cause I ended up getting to know her personally, which is more than I can say about me and you... its that trust she has in me that makes me love her more and more...
So Angel if you read this I want you to know how much I love you, and I never regret anything in my life involving you, you truely are my Angel and I love you so...
And Megan if you end up reading this all I can say is how sorry I am for hurting you, I never meant for it to happen. All I can hope for is that we can remain good friends but that decision is in your hands...
Midnightblue9999
MidnightBlue9999 · Fri Mar 16, 2007 @ 07:53am · 3 Comments
