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Greiving over Glory

Your like a migraine in the morning
And a back ache when you go to bed
You’re the worst pain I’ve ever felt
And it still doesn’t make me stronger

Your like thunder when I’m mad
And like rain when I’m sad
You bring out the worst in me
No matter where I go you follow

Your like salt in my heart after I’ve been stabbed
And like icy cold water being poured on burning flesh
Pain so deep that it is never forgotten
And whenever remembered, it hurts just as bad as if its happening all over again

Your like being ditched in the middle of no where
And like drowning with no one around in the middle of the Atlantic
Such hopelessness and instability
Such loneliness and depression of abandonment

Its crazy the pain that can be cast on a human being just by emotion
By other peoples obliviousness to others well being
Especially after all that person did to fix them up
After they had came to them all broken down and messed up

Middle of winter left in the middle of nowhere
The place were you left me for dead
Where you dropped my heart and paid it no attention
Now I’m still here picking up the pieces

So many tear drops stained on my pillow
So many 2 AM’s staring at my ceiling
When I have to wake up and six
And deal with the stress of everyday life

I wish I’d never met you
The ignorance of your being would be bliss at this point and time
Pain so indescribable and unidentifiable
All I know is that it hurts with a passion

I thought pain was weakness leaving the body
I thought I would just move on and get on with my life
I thought I could make it without you
But instead here I am grieving over your glory