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As I slowly fade away
They don't ask me to stay
As I slowly drown in my sorrow
I don't want to see tomorrow
I always ache
It's all that I can take
As I slowly fall
There's noone to call
-Nitemare

I dream about the past
That feeling will never last
I feel the scars upon my wrist
Where my tears kissed
These memories I want to erase
Those that I don't want to face
It's never fair
They never care
-Nitemare

Always with scorn
So I look so forlorn
Always getting hit
Saying that I'm not fit
You always scream at me
I am never free
I pick up the phone
But I'm always alone
You are never there
You never care
I just want to disappear
You are never near
I will give up my life
I shall use this knife
-Nitemare

Being in constant pain
I can never refrain
Inflicting upon myself
Degrading my health
Theres always an emotion
Ready to cause an explosion
Can never get out
Makes me want to shout
So much pressure building up
Spilling over the cup
It's more than I can take
Always being called a fake
Always filled with anger
Just being a stranger
Everything causing pain
Is constantly causing strain
You don't know how I feel
I don't have nerves of steel
The pain never goes away
While you ask if I'm OK
It will never end
These wounds never mend
My feelings never matter
All I can do is become sadder
Even though I care
All people can do is stare
This pain is real
This is how I feel
-Nitemare