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Random things and forces throw people together....I know that to be true now. For the longest time after the betrayl I suffered, I....could not think of trying to feel once more. I've drowned in drinking and lies to myself. My eyes still want to shed those tears but I will not break.
I'm stronger than glass and I will NOT give in to that feeling of inadequacy.
I've got my classes, my job, my Jeep, my friends and my family. Those things are keeping me afloat in this world.
The pain that once held me captive in my own body is no longer as strong, the grip is loosening, I'm forgetting about him...Thank God.
As of late there has been a sudden peak of interest towards me. I'm curious as to what people see or think they see. I'm not pretty, I dont' have the best skills, I'm mouthy, I'm bitchy, agressive, bossy, demanding, moody, vengeful and still...There are those that seek to know me better and it sort of frightens me...For I don't know if I can be what they think they see in me or if what's happening is I'm growig up...I'm losing what I usedto be in order to become what everyone else is beginning to see.
Confusion...
I don't know what to do at this crossroads...I need a guiding light...I've found a flickering star...Can it burn bright enough?
 WeepingAngelOfDeath · Sun Dec 03, 2006 @ 08:26am · 0 Comments |
