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umm hi. these are for dex ahaha i just got my new digicam so of COURZ i had to set it up and have picture sex with it ahahaha here.s some ~~~>

umm i look like a boy crying ~!


a sweet mess up haha i movedddd but it looks so sweeetttt <3<3<3 &!


here.s the umm normal version of that one haha

& stupid people piss me off sometime.s ^_^ i.m off to watc.h DONNiE DARKO <3333333333 heart blaugh

y.eah/ focus/// i.m witnessing history// repeating./
[MADE FOR TV MOViE] = le rock m/ o.r rokc as quat.re would say lol
mm today.s i skipped.s schools because i felt like s**t in the morning and i knew i wouldn.t be able to focus on anything and we i had a bunch of test.s today so no. not gonna happen. actually it was also kinda cause i felt like s**t the day before. hien.s being retarded and yeah/. that just totally pissed me off because he lied to me about something that well he just should have told me about. he technically didn.t lie because he did the even *better* thing and make no mention of it at all. now i know he had time to tell me; we talk every day/. edit: talked. i believe i.m gonna fix that starting now unless he by some miracle of nonexistant? god he stops acting like a dumbass. <3 i.m such a nice person.. aiii stare it just make.s me feel like dsjghiuwe why do you have to be stupid. and i am totally just talking to myself but it.s amazing how it feels way better than talking to him? ai yesterda.y me clayton & kayl.a went to this stupid college night thing and i have no clue what the ******** college i.m going to so case closed on that. will is depressed or just somewhat extremely messed up & has been for the past oh i dont know how long anymore. week.s but it.s been longer than that. a month & a half may.be or more that that. i.m not sure/ we haven.t really talked in awhile till tod./ays so dunno what.s up there. he said he had a revelation lol i hope he stop.s lying to sari and goe.s out w/ michelle so un de la rock haha. chelsea idk yesterday she wouldn.t come to the colelge thing cause she said she was sick idk maybe she really is or maybe she felt like i do today in which case i totally understand lol ahh man i haven.t eevn been able to function today it seem.s like. i just trie/d to sleep everything away which of course makes everything better while youre actually sleeping but when you wake up it.s all there plus all the s**t that you missed while trying to get away from it. so yea/h then there.s the whole not beig able to sleep by myself thing and my stupid mom.s moved all the pills COUGH including the sleeping one/s mm she.s being a b***h sayin.g all this s**t about how i lie and i am making my frien.ds cut? well teaching them she say.s which is just totally stupid in the first place because it.s like HEYYY why don.t i show you how to be stupid like me ok!? deal?!!! omg1 party!! here.s a pin hun...but no. she.s so stupid/... i.m not even going to get into that. i.m just so ******** ehh right now because this week just everything and hien retardedness and my dad and stuff and yeh. then yester.da/y i was on the phone w/ him hien that is not my dad ohh no lol but anyway he was like le silance and yeh then he just went to sleep. totalyl rockin convo we had right there.. ye/ah anyway i just felt like s**t aft.er that it was like this weir.d mome.nt i wa.s just sitting on the bed & we hung up and i just started crying thinkin.g of how everything alway.s goes down in my life. it musta been his going away just then was like symbolic for other things because it got me thinking about so much s**t i was just idk i couldn.t stop so i i calle.d ben and thank god his line was open and i told him some stuff about it and i felt alot better because he sai.d maybe camp won.t be a religious retreat this time just fun like alway.s cause well i.m really stressed about that too but now it.s kinda like ok. idk i just reached this point last night where it was just like ok. i have nothing. nothing important anyway. anyone i.m ever friends with &/or begin to care about ******** me over. i let them. camp makes me ******** happy. & yes i.m going. i mean it.s not even an issue anymore because i really, really desperately need a break and that feels like the only option now. it.s just natural that i.d do it. you know? mm i just hope everything goes ok when i get there. stephanie was just in a wreck the other day, didn.t really see to affect her allthough it was a three car pile up, she got cited & yes she did ride in a police car. i.m afraid she.s going to act djksghalw again then clayton chelz (if she.s going) & myself will feel like djksghl again. i replace wor.ds i can.t think of with random dksjgaigsa letters by the way. yeah/ so i just bitched some of this here cause no one i care about really would read it i guess. TH0: heart if anyone ever d0e.s...

i advise you have sex with incubus an.d list.en to made for tv movie

mraaa i feel like crap. everyone.s going djklasgewo. people involved = hien clayton chelsea me other unmentionable names.
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^.~ first entry.

i already have a blog & a website, so may.be also my last.

no.t much.s happene.d today/ yesterday i wen.t to the haunty house with my bes.t frien.d chel.z and my um? hien e.x boyfrien.d thing.yness so tha/t wa.s fun.s i guess/
lol then w.e wen.t home an.d um pie of teh pumpkin.s then just be like the car bus. ? aka drop o.ff chel.z a/t h.er c.ar ta.ke hie/n hom.e pick u.p m.y broth.er// dri.ve ba.ck to m.y mom.s

i.m cold.

mmm maybe i.ll pos.t lists here or just./ whatever i want XD it.s only mine..

firs.t list/

stuff i ha.ve to do today.s

x// take my shower/wash my hair/brush my teeth.s <3
x// do my chemist.ry homewor.k & missing assignment(s.....) redface
x// do my honors compness.
x// clean my room
x// thin.k of an art project that doesn.t suck mm
x// organize bathroom girl makeup stupidity mess
x// XD LABEL it hahaha but no.
x// paint my nails
x// 100/17
x// library bookness
x// make some f00d.s
x// bring sprite for chel.z mini part.ieeeeee
x// get cra.p read.y for tomorro.w mm veggie sex haha
x// call cl.ayton mbout hall0ween
x// SLEEP
mm unno what el.ses but i gue.ss i bett.er get going on the stuff.s i do have ai>? so m/ & late.r to myself.