Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

today at school i had a scean in class.i had like a bunch of mood swings.i kicked this boy in my class cuz he was being a b***h that i got sent back to calls from the nures office(the one time i need my parents there not there)so i ened up telling him to shut up first then i started to yell at him then i kicked him and gave him an evil look so he stoped brothering me.then i started to cry out of no were for no reson.then i was all happy agine cuz my friend were makeing me feel better.then we had an honroe esembly and i got honrol but my mom said she would come and she didn't so i got all pissed off agine and i kicked one of the tollite papper thingy in the stall then i started to cry agine and then one of my friend ran in the bathroom and i cryied myself back to class soon alfter that i was fine agine.the next day i stayed home cuz my mom felt bad about not comeing to my award and not being able to pick me up.then i was walcking t.v and i think i might have stess,inner depresshion,or p.m.s my mom said it'c cuz something is brothering me and not aperntly my friend emily says that i might be balmik but thats not all thats brothering me i thought i got over the fact that i'm still singal and that i don't have a boyfriend and i have the feeling of being unloved but on the inside i still have that feeling and now it's realy starting to get to me i feel like crap i have some brown dots on my head that look like brusie but there not and there like bumps.i don't know what the ******** is going on with me or my world at all.my mom's car isn't workeing,my dad just isn't makeing money,my brother still the same bad a** thats on drugs as always but this time i'm in for it to.my life seems to all be comeing down on me and it's showing veary well.sometime i just what the world to stop so i can fix all the mistakes i made and do things right.time seems like it's runing out but im not being timed i feel weird lost and like crap.god i have no clue what the hell is going on and my life is just about the deffonishion of what i didn't what it to be before you now it i might end up some were even worse i feel like hell or a drug addict fulled with drugs and depresshion but i'm still clean.my life is just so lost and confusing right now cry