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Well recently I found out I am the type of guy who will not fall in love or like some one easly, that I like older people. So what is it I think I am in love with this girl I told my self I would never fall for, I just can stop wondering I hate it I just hate it so mhuch!! I wonder why it is,I know that if I did love her it is not because I find her so beautifull, but because of who she is how she acts just because she is hersekf!
AHH I hate it I tried everything to forget or get her out of my mind.
I did the following
Tried punishing myself( Ramming wall, pushing self to a limit with lifting of weights, on back to wall while balancing book on head,((YES it was hard and a b***h)))
I tried sleeping , It worked untill a few minutes after I woke up.
I did some bushido I just got angry.
I did some other thing that If I post people will want to put me in a mental asilyum
( kill my self dont ask I posted it now shut up!)
I do not like being in love because it is weak I would wrather live with no love I can but I dont know. .
If any one reads this help I dont like being in love it sucks!