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Hello ok lots of people wanted me to let them read this so im going to! ok i want you guys to know that it will be hard to understand what the ******** i have gone through and just to let you peoples know i had no care of living in 6th and 7th grade i wish i could redo both of those i made some shitty decisions then and hated my life!!!!!!!! so if you please dont mind dont make comments like "i understand" because truley you dont!!!! yes im in hawaii and this seems to be an odd situation because right now im not pissed im happy!! YAY!!!* dances around* wow....i have mixed emotions! ok here we go!

Mitsuki says:
omg i wish you guys understood my life and new me from when i was a child....
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its not fair
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because now you guys cant understand
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why the ******** im like this
MiLLi iN WONDERLAND You're The One That I Belong To says:
haha there's a lot you guys don't know about me too ya know.
MiLLi iN WONDERLAND You're The One That I Belong To says:
you wanna vent out of me?
MiLLi iN WONDERLAND You're The One That I Belong To says:
*on
Mitsuki says:
hmm??
MiLLi iN WONDERLAND You're The One That I Belong To says:
like get all your emotions out??
Mitsuki says:
sure
MiLLi iN WONDERLAND You're The One That I Belong To says:
cool. may I know why you are like this?
Mitsuki says:
ok.
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here we go
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here is my life story
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some parts you may not understand
MiLLi iN WONDERLAND You're The One That I Belong To says:
ok
Mitsuki says:
1-3rd grage starts now(we will go by grades)-
MiLLi iN WONDERLAND You're The One That I Belong To says:
ok
Mitsuki says:
ok this was the period where i felt so mentaly disorderd i was like some retarded which im not! i had to use freaking blocks in class to make sure i would behave good every time i didnt pay attention to the teacher i would have add 1 block on to my block tower. it was so freaking anoying and people did think i was retarded My parents also had no freaking idea what was wrong with me so they took me in to this one place-in 3rd grade i was diagnosed with ADHD .
Mitsuki says:
My parents knew before then that i had had this but NOO they didnt do anything about it. 1-3rd grade i hated i would alwyas try to hang out with somone but they never accepted me. i would actually call people my friends even if they werent and when they did play with me they would end up ditching me and using me (which im still terriefied people will do this to me agian) but that had continued on
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1-5th grade
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i also was over emotional when they were being mean to me i would end up crying and no one would ever freaking care and again i felt like a retard and i still do because i freaking hate my selft
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3rd grade:
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i got friends
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they diitched
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me
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and it hurt
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they told me i was annoying and they never hung out with me agian
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4th-5th grade-
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this was the period in which things had gotten better ^^ alex was in my class and even though he didnt like me he was never that mean to me. i turned tom-boyish in this period because the only people i hung out with were boys like alex. again no one ever accepted me (including alex)
Mitsuki says:
i had made a friend from my girl scout troup who now lives in nevada and she made friends with this girl from korea and 2 girls named liby and veronica who now go to this school. she liked me and it was cool because i swear...she is and will be the only person who accepts me for who i am and I KNOW no one never will!!
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but one day all of "my so called friends" told her crap and she started listening to them and she started being mean to them because she didnt have a mind for herself and im sry but i do have to say that she was my actually twin and we both acted alike we had nothing different between us.... and i liked that....
Mitsuki says:
so you know her dad was happy she got a friend "me" and i was probally her best friend ever but then she ended up moving to st.cloud
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sure i got to see her but guess what.... she moved again but this time to Nevada
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thats the end of that and im tottal freaking depressed after it
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6th grade
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i do meet becky here
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and i was so very dying for her to be my friend ^^
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we never actually were friends we just talked
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and i remember i would keep asking her about tokyo mew mew and it just gave me somthing to takl about ^^i got my first middle school friends
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maggie,natasha,annie,colleen, and becky
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natasha the most evil person in the world then told them that i kept saying that annie was gay
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and that i thought everyone was (becky was not part of this)

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but i didnt i never did!! and you know what i actually thought i had friends HAHAHAHAH ******** THAT!
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no so they all turned agaisnt me
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bla bla bla
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natasha made me cry in class bla bla bla
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and i told them that it was so not true bla bla bla
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annie believed me bla bla bla
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thier not exactly my friend sanymore -.-
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so then lets go to 7th maybe one of the best years of my life but i became a pervert cool huh?? because yeah you know you talk about gross crap and make everyone feel like s**t!!!(sarcastic)
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and was friends with drug adicts
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and people who like to fail school
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again they accepted me for who i was and yes i did make horrible decisions by doing space monkey (choking game) i got pure pressured
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i also was right in front of my friend when she was smoking and i didnt do anything.....
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lets just say that this whole year was a failure
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8th grade....
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i started off with now friend
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no friends i men
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mean
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and now i have you guys
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lets see how this story ends.........
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BY
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LAUREN JOHNSON
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THE END