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It's still hard to deal with-- the departure; That sudden, abrupt "goodbye." She was the only Mother I ever knew, and now she's gone, along with the others I've come to think of as family.
Death. Departure. I don't know what to think of it all. As much as I hurt, Mother and the others must be in hundreds of times more pain than I am. My heartbreak could never outweigh theirs-- Mother, especially, must be devastated. She's lost so much through this ordeal.... Everyone has. I can't blame her decision to leave so abruptly. I just hope she gets through this alright. I just hope that she and the others are okay. They need to give each other strength through these rough times.
And I.... I miss him so much. I don't know what the future holds for us. I can hope for the best, but am I supposed to prepare for the worst? I try to stay optimistic, but there's always a shadow of doubt looming somewhere behind me, even if it's barely the size of a grain of rice.
How can I think so coherently in these hours? And as coherent and composed as I seem, there are times when I feel like my world is crashing down.
...A new look for RJU. And how long will this last?
 .Really Jacked Up. · Tue Feb 27, 2007 @ 09:48am · 0 Comments |
