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So this sounds all too familuar doesn't it? like a 3rd grader claiming boys have cooties or something of that nature. Yet its really nothing like that at all. Their lack of charm and self discipline has nothing to do with why I can't stand the gender...

You see, I've come to the realization that [many] if not [most] boys are highly posessive of their girlfriends. I have yet to date someone who didn't call me EVERY SINGLE DAY or obsess over how I didn't call THEM. Besides treating me like a posession, they are also way too protective and their jealousy is completely unattractive. It's a major turn off when a guy gets [openly] jealous of your guy friends.

Then there is the fact that most boys either care way too much or not enough. If they care too much then usually they suffocate me and drive me crazy. Yet if they don't care enough I feel neglected and unloved. Which ultimately drives me mad. Why can't there be a happy medium? Somewhere inbetween overbearing & underwhelming?

What is the cause of all this anger and frustration, you may wonder. Well, to be honest... its my ex, the boy I never got, and the boy I really want.

This may come as a shock to you, that there are 3 men in my life who are constantally pushing me over the edge. Yet its the truth.

lets call the first guy George. My ex, totally not in love with him... I never was. Yet for some reason he can't let go. he holds on to everything & repetitively tells me how much i meant to him. Sure I feel bad that I hurt him, but I didn't mean to and I think its time he gets over it. I'm not going back to him, thats just life! lkadjfl but I'm too nice to tell him that.

THEN, we have the boy we'll call Aric. unlike George, I love this one. I always have and I fret that I always will. He's older, wiser, & more mature than the first boy. I've known him longer and I feel as if we have a bond. Yet he doesn't really seem to care that much. He says that he doesn't see anything standing in the way of us having a relationship in the future... but what I see standing in the middle of the path, is HIM. its like he'll say things he doesn't mean ... he's leading me on, there is no doubt about that, the real question is to where?

Finally, we have Mack. I've always felt slightly attracted to him. well, a its a bit more than a slight attraction ... but he has a girlfriend. He flirts with me all the time && texts me && everything of the sort. Yet I know he likes, if not loves, his girlfriend and I don't want to get in the way of that... She loves him, and even if she didn't ... I couldn't do that to another person ever again. I can't stand to be the other girl in any more relationships.

aklsdjf I can't write anymore

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