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hello today. well i guess things went wrong today. i don't feel like explaining it and i won't tell you even if you ask. so don't even bother asking. i don't want to go home. i like nikki's house. it's fun and nikki's fun. yay for nikki!!!!! one of my bestest friends in whole wide world!

well i have made a cool thing called the hidden village. it's a naruto thingy. if you wanna know more about it ask me.

ya know what i feel like talking about my problem that is. my husband. i love him don't get me wrong but sometimes i really get so angry with him. i don't mean like i want ot shoot him but i just want....i don't know. he worries me a whole lot and i can enever ask what is wrong b/c i begin to annoy him. i mean i thought we had gone over why i ask him but i guess not.

and i guess it doesn't matter that he worries me either. i can't ask him what's wrong anyways. so i won't anymore. i'll just leave him be b/c he doesn't seem to want ot tell me anything. i have to force it out of him and he seems to get very angry with me when i do that. so i'll allow him his peace.

Well i must say it hurts for me not to ask what is wrong and it does put me on the verge of a nervous breakdown. oh well. i'm used to it now. i shouldn't even care about nervous breakdowns and more b/c they come to me so often. i probably will end up crying about all this later like usual but that doesn't matter. i don't care anymore. i'll let myself cry.

here he lies on the ground
dreaful eyes all around
hear the sighs but make no sound
see grey skies and make no sound

here she lies upon the ground
sinful eyes all around
hear the sighs and make no sound
see bright skies and death is found

Here they lie in the ground
sorrow eyes all around
hear the sighs can't make a sound
see dark skies and death is found

(different thingy)
Let me go and lie in the grass where i can dream. Let me go dream of a happy place where i am loved and so is everyone else and nothing can go wrong. let me dream of a world where is peace is only and hate is never. let me dream myself to my own heaven. let me dream myself to death. then my eyes will close in peace and i will die there with a smile upon my face

if you are reading this agian (i'm sure you know who you are) i wish i could hear that form you when i need it