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lots of choices
lots of things
just too much
just too tired

well after the last journal i wrote
my girlfriend called the cops saying i commited sucide
it didnt piss me off that the cop came to my house at 3am
it didnt piss me off that it stirred up problems
BUT it did piss me hell of alot off that she couldnt trust me
i promised her i wouldnt even cut myself and i havent
I unlike her have reasons to not trust her
but i still do more then she does me
and the only reasons i really have is that shes broken a couple promises
BUT i have never and WILL never brake a promise not even to a friend
NOT to mention someone i love
but ******** that
its really not
i have a HUGE choice
theres a fork stuck in the road and i dont know which way to go
i know which way the people that care about me want me to go
but i have to ignore them and go my own path make my own choice
weigh the options on my own
but i am leaning towards one place more then the other
and Jenna i cant tell you which one that is cause i havent made up my mind
and me telling you it might ******** up the choice i make
so i going to do this on my own
just like i face my personal demons on my own
its about time i face other things on my own
well the first path is stay with my dad and be depressed
maybe even get to the point of braking a important promise
or go with my mom to AZ and be not depressed but ******** up a career
but then again there are other paths leading to the same career
and i dont need to take that one
but also if i go to AZ i fail my senior year of high school
I dont have long to make up my mind

GOD i have too many problems, dont i ?!?