i should be painting beautiful sceneries or drawing wacky anime or writing a very good fantasy fiction book about an assassin or a bewildered witch... or reading tarot cards or ancient runes... or practicing a lame cheiromancy...
huwaaaaaahhhh!!!!
but look at me!!!
i'm studying hard... very very hard and stressed because of a choice that i never made... or even dreamt of in my entire life...
this horrible or maybe... spectacular... horrifying truth that it may change my whole wasted life...