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HOLA! hello peoples. How are you guys? Well if you want me to know how you are PM me and tell me and i might reaspond but otherwise right now this entry is about my life and how I'm feeling. (i sound snobby...sorry)

Well nothing much is going on today. I talked to random people and such things as that. I really wish i could talk about one thing in particular but if the person i want to mention was to get on they would know i was talking about them. I mean yeah they don't get on any longer anymore but i don't want them to pop up and say hiu then read this and get upset.

Ya know what? That is a risk i'm willing to take. I should be able to post my feelings to my friends and the world and i shall do that and if the person sees well at least they will know how i feel towards them.

It is about my Boyfriend. I'm not really having troubles with him except for the fact that he changes the subject to something pleasant whenever i am being seriuos which i hate btw. But my main problem is, is that i don't know if i love him love him anymore ya know? I'm supposed to love my boyfriend in a caring way and a loving way but i don't fel that way about him much anymore. I know that sounds disloyal and everything but right now i don't care.

A lot of people say i would break his heart if i were to ever breakup with him but i don't want to lead him on. Here i am going to list what i really can not stand about him anymore (these things i used to think were cute...not anymore.)

1: he is really perverted. (yeah so am i but he's to much for me)

2: he acts as smart as he possibly can just so he can prove me and others wrong. who gives a flying rat's a** (a term my mom uses) that his IQ is 15 away from genius? I don't. i'm like 60 away god!

3:after someone says something (like right after) he will copy what they say

4: (this on sounds rude but it's what i feel) he is waaaayyyy to sensitive. I know you men think we want sensitive men. we only want them slightly sensitive. (well some don't) we secretly like that bad a** that shows

5: he takes everything way out of proportion

6: he's gets jealous waaayyyy to easily (I Hug my brother [not blood related] and he gets a little pissed)

7: he ALWAYS wants to hug me and touch me and kiss me. I DON'T ALWAYS WANT TO DO THAT!!! Like at a dance i told him i was upset at what my friend told me about. I told him i was about to cry and he asked if i wanted to go make out.

Well right now is all i can list b/c i really want to talk about number 7. Okay he is always wanting to hug me. Okay i can deal with that. I love hugs! but he wants to french kiss me, groupe me both a** and breast (i hate both!) and he never wants to cuddle. I LOVE cuddling! My second to last ex boyfriend loved to cuddle as well. He was sweet and everything but he was a druggie and i couldn't take that.

oh and one more to add to that list

8: He has to many mood swings and when i don't do what he likes he becomes a baby and ignores me. I have told him time and time again he can tell me but nooooooo he refuses! I swear i am so close to breaking up with him b/c of all the reasons i listed