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I hate it when my sister has friends over because I feel like she's shutting me out of her life. Like I'm a dirty secert she doesn't want her friends to know about. I can't help but feel lonely. That feeling has been in my heart for a long time. Even when I'm with friends I feel lonley or sofficated. I don't understand it. Is something wrong? Is something missing? I feel...empty. I have a loving boyfriend, wounderful parents, my sister has her moments, my friends all make me smile. but stilll....Emptiness is in side me. Maybe this is all a dream I'll wake up from soon...or..maybe it's my dreams that make happy. I love to sleep for I can dream of anything. Flying, getting away, changing myself to my comfert level. Not being judged. I can often feel the stares behind my backs from classmates that don't understand me. When they ask questions about me and I answer, they get this look on their faces as if I said something wrong. Just because I have different belifes in stuff the most, doesn't make me a freak. Well I'll shall overcome this. I will do something that will make them see who I truely am, that I am happy who I am.....I am happy of who I am right?