I would never do this in real life, I'm not that dumb nor mean. But the guilt still clings to me. I had a bad dream. Not a nightmare, just... bad.
I cant really remember how it started... but it started as a kind of "alternate ending" to last night. Last night I was talking to Lance, as usual, and he left to go eat, and so did I. I'd told Lance I'd be back when I was done, but I didnt. I had a horrible headache and so I decided to go rest instead of stay on and chat. Which I know he would understand. So instead of actually resting, I went and played the ONE game I'm addicted to, FFX. Lol. This much is true. In my dream, I also saw him, just as I was getting offline, say something like fine, if you're not coming back, then pft. Or w/e. Well, somehow he's up in Harrison still... so I saw him the next day. I clung onto him asking why he was mad that I left and repeating that I was sorry for not getting back on. And, see, we're in some crowd of people, I dont know where, and I saw this kid named Michael that I think likes me in real life. O.o. Anyway, I drop off Lance and throw my arms around Michael's waste, and kinda slide down him and fall on the floor... like being drunk. Then I said in a drunken fashion, "This is my good friend, Michael."
From there I cant really remember what happened... all I know is that Lance was really mad at me. It was like I cheated on him. But I wouldnt do that. Meh, I hate this feeling. I know he wouldnt be mad at me for just not talking to him online if I was sick like that. And I know he'd proly be mad if I 'cheated'? like that. But none of it really happened, other than the stuff I mentioned about last night. Either way, I still feel guilty and I dont really understand why. It was just a dream. -_-
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