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We've been here before, and the sad thing is that it wasn't that long ago. I know that there is no way of predicting how, when, or where it will happen. I know that it is inevitable that it will happen again. But this is just all too soon. We both get it all out of our systems and then we say that we're sorry. When we say that we're sorry, we both mean it sincerely. We hug and kiss and say good-bye. When we part, that pain doesn't go away. It lingers over our heads like a dark cloud. All of the "I'm sorry's" just didn't seem to register. We both feel remorseful but we don't know how to undo the wrong that we did. I still love you and I know that you still love me. But, how can we keep from this happening again next week? All of the things we say tend to fall upon deaf ears. We hear the words but we never really listen to them. We keep ending up where we left off and the pain keeps getting worse each time. At this point, I'm not sure what to do any more. It seems that neither one of us has a solution to our problem, what ever it may be. I still love you. That will never change. When I signed on, it was "for better and for worse" and all of the above. I promise to always stand by your side. You have all of my heart and my unwavering support. I'll never give up on you and I hope that you'll never give up on me. I promise that I will never leave you and that I will be with you always. I promise to try harder at not being such a b***h. I'll do anything it takes to make this work, but I can't do it alone. There are alot of things that I don't like that I have to put up with. You're going to have to just grit your teeth and bear with me on some of those things that I tell you need to be dealt with. In return, I vow to do the same. But again, I'm not going to do this alone. I need to know that you are going to be there to help me too. I'm placing the ball in your court now. What you do with it is up to you.