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I want it to go away...Im wondering if itd just be better for my emotional state of being for me to be alone...I have alot of feelings for him. But I just get the feeling he still thinks of her, and it hurts everytime I think about it, which recently is alot...I want him to be happy. But I really need him to make up his mind...Im so tired of hurting...I cant stand it....I dont want to feel this anymore....but Im too afraid to say anything...if he loves her...I need him to leave me out of this so I dont have to hurt anymore, I feel myself falling for him more and more, but if he doesnt feel that way about me, I need him to tell me.

My heart hurts so much...I want to cry but I cant...I know hes with me...but I dont think that where his heart really is...but I dont want to assume...

I need to learn not to give my heart away so easily...its only led me to pain.

I need someone who will only have me in his heart.