*sigh* what can I say? It's Friday. Nothing special about it. It's freaking cold in california. Sunshine state my a**! I want to go back to Texas. Back to my love. Michael...his name makes me happy and brightens my day. He sent me the sweetest e-mail, i was so happy. This thing with Chris is so complicated. I didnt want to hurt him. Maybe i shouldn't have told him how i felt. But in the long run, it wouldnt have lasted between me and him. I love Michael with all of my heart, and nothing anyone says or does will make me change my mind. If i have to wait, then i will...because every moment im not with him, im thinking of him. Every second we are apart means one more second until we are together again. He makes me feel so special. No one has been able to make me feel like that. Special, Loved...Accepted for who i am... I have only been with him for a couple of months (5 months and 4 days) but it feels so much longer. I miss him so much. I hate being so far away, sometimes i cry...yes, i know, im pathetic. But I dont care. I can't wait until summer comes. Once im out of this stupid school i will be in Texas. I will be HOME. My only home...its so far away...it makes me feel lost and sad inside. My friends arent here...im not surrounded by people that i love the most. I want to go home.
 Elinea · Sat Oct 02, 2004 @ 02:03am · 0 Comments |
