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There’s always something to look forward to in life
Or is there…
For me I was cursed to not dream all my life…
Like a Ghost I’m never loved , never noticed , never understood
There is no one who can change me in life
Yet I have one question…
Why do they try so hard to change who you truly are?
They just can’t except you as you truly are
They feel ashamed to know you even to see you
I try to ignore them
But…
Late at night
I sit in my room
Look out the window
Stare at the beautiful night sky
And I start to cry, I think to my self
Why am I alive?
For one purpose in life
That’s what everyone says
I know I will never live to fulfill it though
Why should I even bother my imagination has been crushed
I’m getting picked on almost all the time
I’m always getting called an idiot
My entire life the one person who suppose to comfort me tares me down almost everyday
I can’t take it anymore!
And I try to
I really do try
To cry all the pain away and say how I feel but
Nothing…
Nothing happens
No one cares so…
I want to die
So I can just feel better seeing everyone else happy I’m gone
No more tears
No more screaming or yelling
No more fights
I’d love to say there’s no more
No more worries of life
That will never happen for me
So I sit in my room again but with the lights off
I sit on my bed and see my life passing through my eyes
Suddenly…
Staring out the window
In the midst of the night
Tears are shed
And all I say is
“I wish this would all stop …
Just listen to me someone
Anyone
Just except me for who I am and who I am to become!”
Then I go to sleep and dream of a wonderland with no worries at all
I wish I can stay here forever in an eternal peace
But sadly
That can never happen
To me anyways
The eternal peace
How I wish I can see it with my own eyes on earth that happening
Surely I know if I were gone the eternal peace would be a step closer to happening
And I would eternally be in my fantasy land
Forever and ever more


-Rachelle (KamiYoruichi)