Thought I might as well spend some time writing something in this litte place here that no one enters to read anyways. So I can put anything here really, wouldnt matter. -sigh-
The distance kills me.
This room is not me.
I wanna leave.
I wanna love.
I am in love.
I wanna be there.
Damn it...
I hate this country
I hate this family
I hate the fact that Im a part of it.
I love someone.
More then I ever thought I could love. Im seeing a future, and I want to see it bright and well. I mean... for the first time in many years I've even concidered ... family... merriage... the things that a person I used to love never wanted to have with me. And now... I found someone, that I have so many strong feelings for... a person that I love. And... as I said, for the first time in many years I've realised what I want... -sigh-
I've told her about it, and yea.... she knows. And the fact that she didnt "run of" makes me feel.. .safer. Oh god I want.... I want it... I want my future. I will fight for it, but im such a weak fighter. GOD DAMN IT! I LOVE HER!
I...I... I'll do anything. Sell my soul, get a worthless job, be a slave for a year.. anything.. just to be able to have that... just one moment.. please...
But even more then that... I ask for a future with the one I love. Give me the chance to be with her... I'll do anything... anything...
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