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Chibi Witch Big Waters
Washing Clothes
So im after a long put off amount of time washing some clothes. Im just sitting around in a big silk yellow shirt, waiting to put my clothes in the dryer. Also I think my goal for this year is to get back into school. Im thinking I want to go for a degree in Animation but not computer stuff I wanna be a cartoonist or work in Anime. Im not even sure my collage offers anything like that, I sure hope they do. I have to do something to fill the time. I mean gaia works out well and stuff but i think if I go to school again it will make me feel better, and also It may help me to become more determind in droping the lbs. And being active in my E.D.
Which is always good. You can never be too thin, well you can be but I have a long way to go before im so skinny I have to be sent to the hospital and put on feeding tubes. Anywho. I guess that's all for now.


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  • User Comments: [2]
    It's been a long while since I have last posted. I am pretty sure though that no one reads this, that is why I can post as truthfull as I am going to. Recently I have moved into my own place, no one else other then my friend(pet) Flea and me live here. I love it, but since I last posted I have moved from FL to NC and made a few friends in the almost year I have been here. By few I mean 4 and I have lost 2 of them already. One because of the fact that he was friends with the one who hurt me the most since I have been here and I think has held this person in high regard almost an idol if you would for a while, and because of that I can not trust that if I express myself it won't get back to the one who hurt me. The other friend I lost was not a very good friend at all. I am 23 yrs of age and I will be 24 this june. I have seen and been threw many tramatic things in my life, mostly sex related abuse. Yet some how I have only found comfort in men, ( all who have abused me) all who have hurt me. But I guess I have always thought to have an understanding of what types of people they where threw there gender. I have had little female friends because I guess I don't have a good understanding of them. Maybe it's that I don't have a clear understanding of people that won't hurt me.?. Im not sure.

    I am torn between the life I had and the unknown of starting a new life here. Will it be better? Will it be worse? Will I grow as a person? Or will I decay back into the earth and have to start a-new in another life? What will become of me if I can not find any soild ground to stand on? The things back home seem so soild, but I know in my heart that is a lie. They are not soild, im just use to dealing with that level of inconcestincey. While if I managed a way to live back home, would I really be able to live? Or would I just fall back into the system of the every day monotany of life.

    One thing I am sure of is that I am over livingn the life of a victim, while I never asked to put myself in thouse postions I never wanted to be there either. It wasn't my fault at any time, although my disorders tell me another story. I just want to be happy, I want to find it in me to do the thing's I always dreamed of doing. I want to dance I want to draw and paint I want to help the world out in even the smallest way. I want to live!

    I just am not sure how to start it.

    comment ChibiWitch · Community Member · Wed Mar 05, 2008 @ 04:36am
    It's been a long while since I have last posted. I am pretty sure though that no one reads this, that is why I can post as truthfull as I am going to. Recently I have moved into my own place, no one else other then my friend(pet) Flea and me live here. I love it, but since I last posted I have moved from FL to NC and made a few friends in the almost year I have been here. By few I mean 4 and I have lost 2 of them already. One because of the fact that he was friends with the one who hurt me the most since I have been here and I think has held this person in high regard almost an idol if you would for a while, and because of that I can not trust that if I express myself it won't get back to the one who hurt me. The other friend I lost was not a very good friend at all. I am 23 yrs of age and I will be 24 this june. I have seen and been threw many tramatic things in my life, mostly sex related abuse. Yet some how I have only found comfort in men, ( all who have abused me) all who have hurt me. But I guess I have always thought to have an understanding of what types of people they where threw there gender. I have had little female friends because I guess I don't have a good understanding of them. Maybe it's that I don't have a clear understanding of people that won't hurt me.?. Im not sure.

    I am torn between the life I had and the unknown of starting a new life here. Will it be better? Will it be worse? Will I grow as a person? Or will I decay back into the earth and have to start a-new in another life? What will become of me if I can not find any soild ground to stand on? The things back home seem so soild, but I know in my heart that is a lie. They are not soild, im just use to dealing with that level of inconcestincey. While if I managed a way to live back home, would I really be able to live? Or would I just fall back into the system of the every day monotany of life.

    One thing I am sure of is that I am over livingn the life of a victim, while I never asked to put myself in thouse postions I never wanted to be there either. It wasn't my fault at any time, although my disorders tell me another story. I just want to be happy, I want to find it in me to do the thing's I always dreamed of doing. I want to dance I want to draw and paint I want to help the world out in even the smallest way. I want to live!

    I just am not sure how to start it.

    comment ChibiWitch · Community Member · Wed Mar 05, 2008 @ 04:52am
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