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this day is ******** up to,every day of my life is ******** up i really hate it,every one that meets me thinks i have the best life but they dont know wat my life is really like its so hard,i cant really live like this im always crying and dont want to be,anthony always says to cry when im feeling sad or something but im sick of always crying all the time,im sick of being pushed around and tretid like im a little kid,i just wish coty would go away and never come back,to be out of my life forever so that i can live alone with mom and no one eals. Im really sick of crying,i really need someone,someone that will love me,not hert me,and confert me when im sad,i once had that person but i was stupid enuf to let him go and now im going to be alone for the rest of my life,im going to live alone,work alone,eat alone,sleep alone,dance alone,cry alone,and die alone.....i really dont want to die alone,thats all i am is alone and thats all ill be is alone. im ether going to hang my self,shout my self,cut my risets till i die of blood los,or do anything thats bosibul to kill my self....well ill right tomorow when i feel better IF i feel better bye