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I find myself in the depths of confusion
I look into the mirror to see a saddened image
Is it a picture of me?
Or an emotion to hide?

I wonder if I can take it any longer,
And whether its something that can stay but won't go away.
I cry to see myself depressed over such an issue,
Is it all worthwhile to think about?

Time to time, We talked about it.
But nothing has ever helped to solve this cloud.
Feeling to feeling, I never ignored.
But nothing has ever helped to suppress this crowd.

What can I do?
This is all fated to be,
Unless my eyes are blinded by some sort of light.
How can I stop?
It was planned for all along,
Unless my mind is cracking up some hideous joke.

No one can tell me why I'm walking this path,
And whether it would decide my final choice to come to truth or lie.
Someone won't tell me how to find my answer,
And whether it would crucify or bring my joy.

Time to time, We talked about it.
But nothing has ever helped to solve this cloud.
Feeling to feeling, I never ignored.
But nothing has ever helped to suppress this crowd.

What can I do? [Tell me what...]
How can I stop? [Tell me how...]
Why is this happening? [Tell me why...]
Where am I walking to? [Tell me where...]

There was never a time when I'd ignore this problem,
But I can't promise I will solve it in time.
There will never be a time when I'd see through all of this,
Unless I can remove this giant blindfold.

Time to time, We talked about it.
But nothing has ever helped to solve this cloud.
Feeling to feeling, I never ignored.
But nothing has ever helped to suppress this crowd.


Summer Springs++___Clueless=120904
This song talks about feelings I felt when I felt at a loss at something..The story behind it: Just a few weeks ago, I became depressed [again] about the break up between Ben, who is now my ex, and me. Although I've already gotten over him, the scar will live on in my heart..Then I wrote this song, saying how confused I was to why I felt depressed over him when I'd already gotten over him. Even before this happened, Both of us always talked about it when I was feeling down about it because I never seemed to heal even though 8 months already passed since the separation. Then I realised that, we've talked about the issue for so many times, and yet I still felt uneasy and somewhat depressed over it. Thus, the chorus. Right now, there's only 'sometimes' when these feelings will arouse, when I thinka bout it of course. I try not to though. >_<
I really love this song although its kind of a link to Erased Memories, But still, I find it beautiful due to the fact that this song was written out of many feelings. Most of my poems and songs are, though. ^^;