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As I scavenge my mind,
a rather empty abyss.
I learn more about myself
than you will ever know.
The good, the bad, and the ugly.
All exist inside of me.
What I have noticed is
the bad out-weighs the good.
And although I will never tell you,
my most deepest feelings,
thoughts, and
ideas.
I feel safe with how I have lead you to see,
that I can be better than what I am.
But to take that from my mind,
and put my body into action.
That connection is not there.
It is detached and quite honestly,
I do not want it to be bridged together.
I have a fear of letting the real me out.
My mind cannot handle how
you will react to my words.
It cannot fathom the relentless pain
and suffering that you may bring.
Though I doubt you will.
There is always that one percent,
that I will most likely fall under.
As I have told you before what I feel,
rather often you have pushed it aside,
or so I noticed.
I can not help but feel your reaction,
will not be as lenient.
All I can form from my rather
scattered and incomprehensible mind,
is you are perfect in my vision.
But my flaws keep me levels below you
and I do not wish to corrupt something so,
Beautiful.