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I'm going to die!! XD oh well. Rabin says it's normal to do terribly on your first paper (insert:lieing bithc!! gave me a 55! it was still one of the highest scores!!)

Now that that random bit is over, time for another! I was just wondering before I picked up my pen to write: "If I asked them (amin nosse ea mellon) to describe me in 5 words, what would they say?" Hmph. What indeed! Probably something ridiculous and untrue. If they do, well then my mission has been successful so far. If they say something true, well they were either lieing, joking, or it was heather or logan.......well heather. Even Logan is caught. Heather has a chance though. Hehehehe what a curious thought that is.

-ahem- okay I got that creepy randomness out of the way. Now onto the rant! 'cuz we all know that's your favourite thing! If it's not, well why the hell do you read my journals anyways weirdo razz

Anyways, so today's (well nights) rant is about.....well not sure exactly. I'll just hop ya into the middle.

.......all these ideas. People's hopes, dreams, pains, entire lives and worlds! All trapped in my mind fighting each other constantly for a turn in the spotlight, each time hoping to finally be started and finished. To be real and complete instead of fake and hollow mockeriess of stories. And after each disappointment, fighting me. Constantly chastising me for my failures, flaws, and short-comings throwing them in my face everytime I try to fullfil their wishes. Punishing me constantly by returning to the fray of battle for the spotlight and a chance to punish, mock, and laugh at me agaib. -sigh- things would be a lot easier if my mind, heart, and soul could agree on something. lol. what a contradiction. pushing the blame for all my faults and problems off of me and onto me! Would love to see what a psychologist would say to that XD

STORIES(just a record of the strongest of the fighters):
elves/dwarves. coffee. (short-story only)
force orphan. dissapointed as always.
power-rangers/ecliptor. ummm......no comment.
bathory's bloodlust. no plot. beyone prologue, nothing solid.
disturbed's 'in the fire'. new.
howling banshee's/rangers apprentice. current escape. so ridiculous number of mini stories.