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well..when I was born my mom and dad had to go to work the 2nd day afterwards.
All I had was my grandma. I learned how to talk proper by 1 years old cause noone ever took the time to show their look to make funny nosie so all the talk to with was lined english like they would talk to an adult. When I fisrt started school
I had 3 maybe 4 friends. but, my parents couldn't take my to that school anymore too far. At bidle I was an outcast noone was nice to me but one boy but rumors that we went togeter rid me of that since i was alone one try to pick on me I beat the mess out of her even well he was 3 times bigs than me he become a friend after that. Since kindergarten I've been outcasted never really fit in...

funny kindergarten has kinder in it but the minute I start kindergarten..I got ADD.
It was alright since ever since 3rd grade I had the most control over the school.
To all I was a sweetie,an innocent bystander. which i've always been in a way.
Cause All the friends I made left the school for a better life or believe fake rumors. The rest of the class made it hard to keep friends so i choose to beat of be beaten...I choose beat after all one they I know was i had no ture friends
in k-4 but clairence when I was younger he protected me.then think in 5th grade
I meet "eiri" she came to me one day and gave this manga. I love it ever since i've been a anime fan and "eiri" best firend.

when i went to 9th grade mainly All My friends left me. I got rid of my boyfriend
if they cheat once they'll do it again. we're still best friends. I can't beat up anyone or my grades are shot dead. If I miss 5 days in a round. So I get them intouble to show gets best I Can't hurt you doesn't mean I can't beat you.

I'm not allowed to go anywhere with out at least one family member. I can hardly go a round the corner for by myself. when I was little to now Is was most likly grounder form growing. I've got very little memory of anything other then then sitting down by my computer. Think how great it wpuld be to see the world out of my pison of a home. To be somewhere then here any where the living like I was a mass murder. I now for a fact that people in jail get more freedom then me cause aleast they have a choice of going to the "play yard" or inside activies. all I can do is sit inside my house begging to be free get's once.

My daily stuff is
wake at 6 or 7 am
wash up
computer
eat
school
study japanese
tv
homework
tv
go to sleep at 1 or 2 am


weekend
sleep in maybe to 8 or 9
wash
computer
tv
go to 4 or five of my parents favorte shopes.or go to my cuz who is moving.
studt japanese
homework maybe
tv
computer
sleep
this plan is also for the summer maybe

the reason why I'm stuck in the becuase my mom hates to travel or get out the house .The only way i go sowhere fun is with cuz and they limit that to..I guess my
life sucks to the world and It mostly hates me to.. cry The only time i see the world is though as screen.

I almost fell out the widow and the only thing my dad care about is that I broke the
window confused to save my life or else I'd be dead. cry