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sweatdrop well my thoughts are a bit crazy, most of my friends don't really understand whats going on inside my head, the pain, loss, loneliness, love hate, regret
it would be too much for them to handle. even i find it hard to believe ive manged to hide so much from them.
im ashamed really, of whats in my mind. the secrets i hide i only tell to one person. he accepts me for who i am and even though ive been threw so much he stays by my side. i love him more than i have ever loved anyone. hes not ashamed to be with me and has actually found a place inside my heart. my thoughts turn to him when i am in pain and thinking of him makes me forget the past. thanks to him im not so shy anymore and have become a bit more outgoing. thanks to him im not some scared little girl anymore. i don't hide from scary things anymore instead i will face them head on. i know people will not like the fact that im with him but i say who cares i love him and he loves me, what we feel shouldn't have to be denied just because of a little difference i trust him completely.

i use to think that maybe in someway people knew what had happened to me, and i would be scared, i thought that's why im alone. but i was wrong i shut myself away from the world instead of living in it fully. a shadow that's not truly living was no life for me. now im me not a shadow. i will no longer hide from people, although im know im not fully ready to let everyone know, it will be a secret i will try to hide, but eventually they will find out and then i know he will be by my side. ready to give support and for that i will always love him till the day i die. heart heart