At school. Things are going well with O.R. But DJ still loves me n all. Things aren't too serious between us...well for me they aren't. he wishes we could get married. I kind of stray away from the idea...and leave him in questions. O.R. I'm falling back into compltete love again and its fine. I hope to never hurt him ever again. I'm glad I still talk to Kev. we still love eachother, but we know things could never happen again. And thats fine with me. If I had been atleast 17, we would have been married by now. But I guess what Sam said is true. If you find your soul mate too soon, things will never be the same with your latter relationships. I regret the things that ruined our relationship, and I wish I never ******** up in the first place. I know I cheated on him. And even as distance was between us, I should have never let our love fail and me landing onto cheat on him. I should have known better. But its alright now. I'll do the best with what I have and move on. Atleast I've been better.
Right now I'm helping a good friend of mine see the light, and see what life can give. I remember when Kevin showed that to me. I hope me talking to him, and giving him guidance will help.
On other news, and not so dramatic..kinda. I'm kicked out of the depot for thirty days...just cause I was straddling O.R. and I was giving him a purple nurple and he was trying to shove me off, and hit mah boob by accident..and someone who runs the depot came in at the very moment and thought we were fondling eachother. Ridiculous, huh? We were origonally banned for ninty days, but my dad talked to the head of the depot and we're about to come back sooner...but Damn, what are we going to do for that long without the teencenter?? Arg. Atleast at home I'm able to play gunbound. Really awsome game. its an online game, and its like gaia...you have an avitar..you win gold by battling other people and winning...and buy something for your avi....if you wanna try it out go to gunbound.com and download it and register..registering is a pain in the a**, but when you start playing its so much fun.
On other notes, I'm doing my best to quit smoking. It sucks. Yesterday I went 6 hours without a ciggerette. And I only had 3 and a half ciggerettes yesterday. I hope you all are proud of me, cause thats some real motivation right there. Heh. I hope today I do well...So far I've only had one...and the next half I have is at 7....and then the next is at...eh...10:30...so I'll basically only have 2 today. yay!!! Love you guys.
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