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Blah, I've been in a good mood, and now I'm in a numb mood. I just...Guess I'll rant.

So I've been talking to this guy on IM for four months, we met through myspace.com. Well anyways, he works at my local grocery store, I go there about once a week. Met him before we started talking. Then we talked and we haven't met. So we planned to meet at the library today cause I always go there. Went, he wasn't there.
No big surprise. I had a feeling we wouldn't meet, I also have a feeling we would never meet. Wonder if that is true too. So I'm kind of mad yet okay about that.

I miss my kitty!!! My family went to a plant nursery today and there where these two cats, they were so cute. This one liked me. I want a kitten now. *Sniff*

I also want to kill someone, or just hurt someone. I went shopping with my mom yesterday, and I guess sometimes I hate feeling waves from people. Makes me uncomfortable.

Lately I've been feeling odd. Like a couple of days ago we were eating dinner and I was in the front room with my sis. I suddenly got really hot so I asked my sis "Is it hot?" The chicken? "No, are you hot?" No. And she was wearing long sleeves too. I was sweating, getting hot, my hands were clamey. It was odd. I even asked my mom and dad and at first they thought I was joking, then they saw how red I was. And they felt me, I was hot, but no fever. So who knows what that was.

I guess I just need to feel down sometimes. I'm strong all the time, not letting anyone's emotions or feelings really get to me. But sometimes, I don't know. Something sets me off, thinking, songs, or just a random thing.

Oh well. That's the inside. biggrin No one knows inside. It's inside a hard shell.