Betrayal. You betray, You get betrayed. It has its limits though. I'm glad you see my betrayal as cheating. I'm glad you have a friend who can say the things that you can't say to me. You're done with me aren't you? You're giving up? After all these years of saying you won't ever give up, you give up. No one listens when I warn; then they do in the end. Just so they don't go through it again, they find a way to get me away from them. If you want me to go away then ******** say so. Don't throw s**t like cheating at me. That doesn't make me go away. You don't give a damn anymore. Neither do I. I'm frankly happy with the loneliness. I'm your enemy now is what I'm getting from this. This dark abyss is my friend now. The one that only I can walk through between the two of us because I can handle not being wanted. I can handle being lonely. I'm choosing not to love anyone. I'm choosing to kill all my feelings but depression so I can learn. I feel the pain. I feel it in and around me. Just so I can feel it again until it hurts so much. I won't make someone go through it again. I'll always remember this pain. I always have. Thanks for not listening to me. Thanks for letting me kill myself inside. Thanks for the pain I put on myself for you and everyone else.
Andromeda Scarlet · Mon Jan 11, 2010 @ 10:10pm · 0 Comments
