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i miss the way things used to be
the you used to hold me
i miss so much and now what
im alone and unhappy
did i ******** up walking away
was i expecting to much when i had wished you away?
what on earth was i thinking?
i fell in love with a gay kid
i dumped the onl guy i had a chance with
i've been alone for so long i've grown used to this
but every once in a while i feel so god damn useless
why me oh my why why oh jesus why?
I wish in well on swans on stones
I wish for the same thing and it never comes
i hate myself for being so dumb
why did my life have to ever go wrong?
it started with a curse and ended with this
and the torture keeps coming in this abyss
anymore i just wonder why i exist.