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when she says she loves me i know its a lie
she only loves that im useful or she is lonely and everyone else is busy
ive long stopped loving her
because when i am not useful to her i become an annoyance and the cause of all her problems
she tries to tell me shes the boss and ive long since learned she has no power
i know without me she would have died or killed herself long ago but i also recive no thanks for the things i do
when ive threatened to leave she says "ill call the cops if you do"
she tells me that all she has to do is say i threatened her life of hurt her and to jail i would go
the few times i tried to leave my family begged me to stay because she needs someone to help her out
and it just happens it has to be me
i know it unfair and now im just waiting for the day im 18 and no longer am bound
i know shes my mother
but i couldnt care less
im leaving her as soon as i can to save myself from a life like hers
i will forget her and leave her behind
she doesnt care for me so im sure she will find
some poor dumbass fool to take my place fast
im not certain were i will go but i cannot stay here
i cannot stand her
my sister was lucky and got out quite early
i know shes my mother but i just cannot care