September 26, 2009 Saturday 11:20 PM
Dearest Sennyo,
... at around 8:00 AM my mother-person and I arrived at the visitaion. We were of the very first arrivals and had accidentally entered through the wrong entrance, and so came into the room (the gym) where the body was being held after an entrance hallway. He looked a bit different than last I saw him. We then went around the building and into the correct entrance. After a few minutes I noticed Bobay and Devita. A long while later more people came in. I was still alone as mother-figure had left already. I gave a slight wave and slight smile to Ms. Le, although Bobay thought that I was waving at him, and he gave me a slight smile and a nod.
Erin and Grace came together, and I hung out with them for a few minutes until they were distracted by Annie (B) and Kerry. Before the latter two had come, they had told me that Hammon was there. Before this, I was standing in a corner near the door when they had discovered me and then we spotted Hess who we called over. He's as genial and kind as ever, and has become more handsome. Minutes later Katherine came by with Snazz. I asked her if Ali had arrived yet, although she replied that she knew not and didn't think so. Minutes later Megan approached me. She wore a light-purple short-sleeved shirt with a white undershirt and formal black pants. Hugs were given and I went over to where Ali was. Several minutes of walking around were spent until we went into the gym auditorium and took our seats.
We entered from the right of the room (when facing the casket) and found seats on the left in the bleachers.
Mass.
In the beginning of the mass they started the process of closing the casket; they tucked in and over his body the light-blue fabric and then slowly closed the top. His casket was in two pieces split down the middle so that it seperated more or less the upper body from the lower. Only the upper piece was open. Tears fell.
Brian gave a eulogy and in it he gave a an imaginative story he made where our country was supplied with eneregy from one factory. The factory would be humonguous with many rooms with gadgets and gears and machinery in them; all useless. Then, in the very core of the factory, within a room of glass would be Kevin on a hamster wheel wearing his sweatpants and probably like three, no five (says Brain) St. X sweatshirts. Everyone laughed. I laughed and cried. He said and that when Kevin trips he would cause the country an entire black-out.
—No Longer Strangers— The closing song in which they took away the casket. I sang along at first, within the first stanza, but my breath was choked as I saw a man dressed finely becked to two others that it was time. The two joined the other two by the casket and started to move it away, slowly enough to make it not rushed or casual, but quickly enough to go along with time-constraints. My chest and heart quivered as tears quickly welled up in my eyes as they set about to taking it away. They slid across my cheeks, to my chin, and may have fallen. I do not know. Seeing it roll away though... it was just so... so saddening, despairing, and oh so much more. As it was about in the middle of the path between the exit and the center of the room where it had been before, my vision grew to be so blurry and my cheeks so wet and my hands so damp that I took from Ali's mother's tissue-pack a tissue, a very nice one indeed, and dabbed and wiped away the tears that kept coming. Katherine had already a tissue in her hand, of which she had been using over time, but Veil reached down and took a tissue as well. My breath was short and trembled as I sobbed more or less silently.
As the casket left the room, people slowly began to exist.
My mother-person arrived after a while after I had asked Ali's mother for a ride home. We all exited the room. The sky was still gray outside and no cars, even the hearse, had left yet. The seventh/eighth grade people stood in groups somewhat dispersed. Mark, who I'd been anxious to see was there. I said to him, "Hey, Dalga." His response was not so casual as mine and some were. If he replied at all, I think it was 'Hey, _________." Jazzy was there, as was Shelby and her sister Hannah. As was Hammon, Hess, Doyle, Katie the tall one, Hansman, Cambell, Jill (who was sick with mono which she found to be humorous that I knew and questioned her about it), Kerry, Schmidt, Geres (seen only at the very end of the visitation), Mosley (I believe he tried to give me an encouraging smile but I had turned away too soon), Andrew, Grace, Kirby, Alanna, Palumbo, Kloppy, and Austin.
When I had originally left the gymnasium, I was alone but quickly found Ali being embraced and comforted by a boy. I went over to her, but found it awkward as she was with others, so I stayed quiet. Hess, such a dear boy, turned his head and saw me and asked if I was going with us (them). I asked him 'going where'. He replied to me that they were gonig to the Blue Goose to get something to eat and then heading to the reception. I told him that I wasn't. Perhaps I am confusing this order of events. I know that I went over to Ali who was being comforted by a boy, and at some time before or after that John had asked me about the Blue Goose.
The reception was from 1-4 PM. I stayed from about 1:something to near three.
Later this day I also saw Disney on Ice. Belief is what I most what out of so many things. Although what exactly those things are are a mystery to me. I durst not put any definite answer to any matter or question that I am unsure about.
[End Log] 12:13 AM
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