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everyone says "you need to sleep"
and i always reply "but i cannot sleep"
everyone says "then go see the doctors"
i tell these doctors "i cannot sleep"
the doctors say "here take these pills"
i ask them "why"
they say "for your insomnia"
i say "okay"
i take these pills
they dont work
everyone
that is the doctors the people in the streets those who mean to help and those who mean to harm ask "why do they not work we see you sleeping every night?"
and i reply "i never once said i was not sleeping i said i cannot sleep"
they ask "why not"
i reply for one last time to tell them my reason why
"because when i fall asleep
and then i start to dream
i am not like you i should tell you now
for when everyone dreams they are at peace
not me
my dreams i vivid
i feel each part
the sights, the smells, the sounds, the heat and the cold the soft and the rough and everything inbetween, i taste the tastes it all feels real
my dreams arent good
these are not nightmares
these are far far worse
i dream of death
i dream of pain
i dream of lonelyness
i dream of wastlands
i dream of fire
i dream of rain and falling stars
i dream of blood and bloody battles
i dream of wars that end this earth
i dream of sorrow
i dream of tommorow"
i finish speaking with a tear the only show of my fear these dreams they always haunt me as i wake and in my sleep
forever without escape
until i love and love finds me
i can not fall asleep