these past months have been extremely difficult-
~I lost one of my best friends a few months ago. Its been hard with out her, cuz she was the adventure in my life. Sh emade me do so many things I would have never had the balls to do. Now my birthday is coming up in a week-and its going to suck cuz its my first one with out her in 5 years. You never know how good something is untill you loose it forever. I never have regretted anything with her, other than loosing her. cry
~My ex got out of jail, beat me till i was in a coma-hid, and beat me again the other night. He truely wants me dead-and I have no idea why-but w/e. neutral
~My family I have failed twice already and am thinking about doing it again. I am back in high school-5th year-First failure- and I dont have straight A's-second failure- which really sucks. Now my mom got a pay cut and I need to help out with the bills, but I am between jobs now. So Im thinking of dropping out of high school, getting a GED and failing my family for the third time so I can work full time. gonk
~Johnson & Wales Univ. I think will never happen again. It was a sweet taste of my life that will never happen. Like giving sugar to a baby, and never letting them have candy. It was the only thing-other than my friends-that made me truely happy.
You never know what is going to happen in your life. By now I planned to be in college, but Im not. So dont waste your life planning it, but LIVE it, cuz you will regret it if you dont, -I AM.
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Its just like when my brother(1years ago when i was 1 cool raped me and threatened to kill me and my mother. You think everything would get better once the rest of the family finds out and scares him off, but no he comes right back and does it again.
The only good thing i have in my life that is going well is that im in college and im going to have a good paying career when i get done, so that i will never have to rely on anyone ever again. I would rather spend time and money to help someone with their dreams, though, than to go on with my own. I've always put everyone else before myself.
If you want to add me as a friend and/or pm me, go right ahead.