A lot has happened today. So I keep making entries, because I am so distraught. v.v It's sort of pathetic I suppose. But oh well. Here's another entry...
When you hear laughter...it's probably mine...I laugh to hid I'm out of time...I laugh to hide my mortal pain...my laughter makes me sound insane...And perhaps that is the case...I do despise the human race...but most of all I hate myself...I thought that I had some wealth...but no I have no value so...instead I laugh so pain won't show...Deep inside I'm feeling bitter...but DAMN IT world, I'm no quitter...trust me I have tried to quit...stop self inflicted pain s**t...it's hard though and I find I'm broken...I gave my heart as a loving token...so it's the only part that lives...but no longer life it gives...since I gave my heart away...the rest of me will decay...I wanted him to put me together...I don't know if he can however...after today I find I've shattered...now my heart sits silver plattered...it still belongs to the one I love...love, like a needle that they shove...into my heart, broken and bleeding...does he love me? or is he leaving...? I don't know the answer so...I don't know which way to go...and as my laughter turns to screams...I find nothing's as it seems...
When you hear laughter...it's probably mine...I laugh to hid I'm out of time...I laugh to hide my mortal pain...my laughter makes me sound insane...And perhaps that is the case...I do despise the human race...but most of all I hate myself...I thought that I had some wealth...but no I have no value so...instead I laugh so pain won't show...Deep inside I'm feeling bitter...but DAMN IT world, I'm no quitter...trust me I have tried to quit...stop self inflicted pain s**t...it's hard though and I find I'm broken...I gave my heart as a loving token...so it's the only part that lives...but no longer life it gives...since I gave my heart away...the rest of me will decay...I wanted him to put me together...I don't know if he can however...after today I find I've shattered...now my heart sits silver plattered...it still belongs to the one I love...love, like a needle that they shove...into my heart, broken and bleeding...does he love me? or is he leaving...? I don't know the answer so...I don't know which way to go...and as my laughter turns to screams...I find nothing's as it seems...
