I watched Twilight again yesterday.
The movie didn't seem any better except for the fact that someone asked me out to see it. This builds up to the fact that I got played. We go into the theater and it's all dark. We see a lot of people we know, but who cares, right? Throughout the movie we hold hands and you know, etc. lol yeahh anyway! The movie ends and we get up. We walk out the door and we're all talking about the movie. We step out and then we see these girls that we both know. Then he drops my hand and he goes over to them, leaving me haha. He didn't exactly drop my hand, more like yanked his away from mine. Speaking of awkward, we went out to eat and I guess I felt a little hurt, but those kinds of things I don't really show. I guess he might have sensed it hurt me a little but I was just like, 'oh, so this is how its going to be.' I just acted normal for the rest of the night. You can act like you like me when its dark, but around other people you can't. That's how it is. So with this entry, I'm over it. It's the in the past. I don't need someone who doesn't want to be with me. I admit, I was happy for a little bit, but I knew relationships in high school don't last.
It's been a good month or so. It made me happy for a bit. I'm sure it made him happy for a little bit too. At least I can leave this knowing that he won't smoke or do drugs anymore.
This always happens though. Every time I open my heart for someone, I'll end up being closed off even more in the end. Honestly, it hurts, but I'll get over it eventually. Nothing to cry over; I've gotten worse.
Next time, for sure not the bad guy.
The movie didn't seem any better except for the fact that someone asked me out to see it. This builds up to the fact that I got played. We go into the theater and it's all dark. We see a lot of people we know, but who cares, right? Throughout the movie we hold hands and you know, etc. lol yeahh anyway! The movie ends and we get up. We walk out the door and we're all talking about the movie. We step out and then we see these girls that we both know. Then he drops my hand and he goes over to them, leaving me haha. He didn't exactly drop my hand, more like yanked his away from mine. Speaking of awkward, we went out to eat and I guess I felt a little hurt, but those kinds of things I don't really show. I guess he might have sensed it hurt me a little but I was just like, 'oh, so this is how its going to be.' I just acted normal for the rest of the night. You can act like you like me when its dark, but around other people you can't. That's how it is. So with this entry, I'm over it. It's the in the past. I don't need someone who doesn't want to be with me. I admit, I was happy for a little bit, but I knew relationships in high school don't last.
It's been a good month or so. It made me happy for a bit. I'm sure it made him happy for a little bit too. At least I can leave this knowing that he won't smoke or do drugs anymore.
This always happens though. Every time I open my heart for someone, I'll end up being closed off even more in the end. Honestly, it hurts, but I'll get over it eventually. Nothing to cry over; I've gotten worse.
Next time, for sure not the bad guy.
